Who The Hell Knows?


Over the years of fighting Fibromyalgia and a basket full of “other conditions” (I ran across a lady who put it this way and have adopted it lol) you get so sick of hearing the wars of is it real or made up (riiiiiiiiiiiiiight we all just have nothing better to do than have our lives turned upside down) is it all in our heads, no wait it’s in our neurological system….oh no no WAIT it’s……Who the Hell knows?  I sure as hell know it’s “not my imagination”.

In other words nobody has a clue as to where it comes from or what causes it but there sure are some interesting stories and theories.  Most of which I totally ignore.  I mean really, please, throw me an anti-depressant for my pain in my hips ya that will work NOT…..uhhhh thanks but you’re dumb.  Just because I was a nurse doesn’t make me a know it all but I do have common sense.  I know it’s real, I know what my CI has done to me and changed my life so BITE ME.

There is a theory I am a bit interested in today.  Ok so I am a survivor of severe physical and mental child abuse (ya we’ll save that for another time just know that) now I was repeatedly kicked in the head, neck and shoulders and they went for the hips when I was down on the floor.  All of which Fibromyalgia attacks.  Hold that thought.  I came across this article on a site for Adult Survivors of Child Abuse. Now this article is NOT saying its “all in our heads” it is saying damage sustained over years and years of my body taking abuse could have reacted and broken down my immune system….food for thought.  Okay so take a read and well talk some more.

Effects on physical health

Childhood abuse doesn’t just affect the mind – it affects the body too. Children who feel perpetually in danger grow up with a heightened stress response. This in turn heightens their emotions, makes it difficult to sleep, lowers immune function, and, over time, increases the risk of a number of physical illnesses. Adult survivors of child abuse are at increased risk of chronic pain and fibromylgia, gynaecological problems, irritable bowel syndrome, diabetes, arthritis, headaches, cardiovascular disease, and chronic fatigue syndrome. Adult survivors of child abuse are also more likely to smoke and drink more than other people in the community, and be less physically active. These factors all impact on the burden of ill health in many survivors’ lives.

Now, I’ve read it and the only thing that is off target for me is “less physically active” until I got so sick I was a person always on the run, working double shifts etc. I didn’t become less active until I got sick.  Okay so a person may come across this and has never dealt with abuse so this theory will be thrown out the window and back to square one but I will say this.  I had a Neurologist who was testing my functions etc one day and out of the blue he asked me “did you suffer any deep physical abuse in your life” and I just stared at him like uhhhhhhhhhhhhh and then told him briefly (after all he’s not a shrink lol) he then told me he feels strongly that people who suffered the blows to my body that I did, those who were in a severe car accident SOMETHING that hurt the neuro system could be a primary cause for the nervous system to “break down” and “malfunction”.

Once again “who the hell knows” but it certainly made for more food for thought.  Personally I don’t think FM is a “mental illness”.  I have always believed it has to do with our neurological system, a neurological disorder of the brain.  MS is a neuro illness and FM mimics it to the letter.  Coinkydink?  I think not.  There is a test that a neurologist can run but the FDA refuses to make it possible.  That is a spinal tap of our fluids in the spine and check our  substance P this is one way many doctors feel can give some answers to FM.  But it’s too “expensive” to have done so let’s not approve it.  Hey I sure as heck don’t want to do a spinal tap…been there done that for a pregnancy a long time ago and ummmm ya they suck….but if it can give me/us more answers, maybe help go in another direction on RESOLVING our illness or maybe putting into a remission so we can search for a cure…..I’d do it in a heartbeat.  Would you?

So, what is your take on this blog post?  Was just food for thought really.

Hope you’re having a pain free day!


Jamie Volner Tucson Arizona